This week has been CRAZY!!! We had corporate week with all of the YWAM family here in Kona, which included all the DTS schools and pretty much anyone else that wanted to join. We got to hear from Darlene Cunningham a few times this week which was amazing and we got to hear from Heidi Baker a few times also. I am sooooo happy that I got to hear Heidi speak. I'm sure those of you who have been in one of her meetings can totally identify with that. I actually forgot who was speaking and felt like I was hearing the heart of Jesus the whole time. I have been in a LOT of meetings with great speakers and have never felt the presence of God in the way that I did this week. From the moment she got on stage, she waited on the Holy Spirit. She took her time and then bam, I felt the presence of the Holy Spirit fall. She spoke on John 15. I would type it all out but its too long and I don't have a lot of time. Abiding in Christ....she spoke on it but actually practiced it too. It's not like Heidi is more special than any of us but I was actually really touched by the way she connects with Jesus, it's like she has an umbilical cord attached to the heart of Jesus and is in constant communion with Him. Nothing flashy, she actually was the happiest, most joyful person I've ever seen. She hugged like everybody there. I went to the bathroom and she came in there barefoot and just hugged all of us in there and asked us if we were getting rocked by Jesus...haha. "For without me you can do nothing."
The whole theme this week with all the speakers was "the dreams of your heart." This is totally something that I am for because I love encouraging people to go for it with the dreams that are in their hearts. I love when people risk big and realize that God gave them dreams, strategies, and plans for a reason. For example, Morgan Perry spoke this week also. Morgan helped produce the Sex and Money film, which is a documentary about child human trafficking in the US. I grew up with Morgan and some of her team so I was really excited to see her up there speaking about the strategies and visions that God gave her and her stepping out against opposition and fighting injustice. She spoke on keeping Christ the center of everything. They had an intercessory prayer team wtih them the entire time they were out filming and researching. They worshipped together every morning and realized their main ministry was to each other and loving each other. Their original team is still together and they are so unified which the enemy hates. I love that!!! I totally know that the people on my team are my main ministry. How can i pour out love on others in other countries if i first don't love God and then love my neighbor? I love that the Sex and Money crew is working to abolish the sex trade against all opposition. I know their hearts and they are setting Christ first in their lives and doing what they feel God is telling them and leading them.
This week was jam packed with schedules and meetings and I had zero free time until after 9pm every day and i just found my processing time at that time. During this processing time, I just spoke to the Lord and told Him, "Lord, how can I live a missionary lifestyle when I am so tired right now and I'm in Hawaii, land of paradise?" I just felt God taking years of weariness and heaviness away from me and all the years of taking care of myself and having to work hard to provide for myself and others away. I felt His heart for me and He told me that I have dreams in my heart that He loves and I don't have to worry about finances and livelihood. I will find joy when i live the dreams of my heart, because He delights in me and delights to give me the desires of my heart, in whatever way I want to serve Him. So now I am praying for strategies and plans and dreams to make things happen.
I pray that you abide in His love this week as I am right now :) I pray that God gives you dreams and that you risk your fear to go for it!
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